Eh, fell off the wagon!

Come along with me as I get back into the diet thing. Got sidetracked with life and such and fell off diet. I DID maintain my weight, however, but haven't lost any pounds for about 6 weeks or so. So hard to find the motivation!

Stay tuned! I'll be back!

Chocolate eggs? No! Egg whites with no yoke, thank you

I'm happy to say that these are the only kind of Easter eggs I ate this Easter Sunday.

We cut them in half and filled them with low-calorie humus and not some mushed up version of the yoke and mayonnaise with loads of calories.

I really felt in control today. Came in at just under 1200 calories!!

Nancy

The significance of red nails

THE LADY WITH THE RED NAILS

This may be weird to some of you, but I'm so proud of the fact that I'm painting my nails again. It's been years since I did this. When I was thinner, I always painted my nails.

You see, when you feel like crap and look like crap, it makes you not give a crap about having painted nails! Well, for me, anyways. Can't speak for everyone, I guess.

This small act of painting my nails is actually a huge deal for me. What appears as a small change on the outside, is actually a HUGE change on the inside.

Lots of mental goodness has taken place since I started 12WBT five weeks ago. Granted, I've also had lots of self-doubt, depression, tears and anger along the way, too, but I've refused to let those things stop me like I have so many times before.

So, although I have a LONG way to go on the outside, the inside is shaping up quite nicely!

Nancy

Madness or clarity?

I think I had a moment of temporary madness this afternoon after I re-watched all of the Michelle Bridges videos posted on the 12WBT website.

(Okay, okay, I know Michelle wouldn't want me to call it a moment of "temporary madness," she'd want me to call it a moment of "complete and permanent clarity.")

Within minutes of watching her latest video today, I announced on Twitter and Facebook that I was upping my desired 12-week weight loss goal from 35 pounds to 38.5 pounds. That means I have 22.5 pounds to lose by May 22!

What was I thinking?

Not a problem in the diet department, as I've been absolutely flawless when it comes to sticking to 1200 cals or under. It's the harder workouts I'll have to do that have me a little freaked out. Because I've been losing weight so steadily from the beginning, I didn't think I HAD to make my workouts too taxing.

So there. I admit it. I haven't been giving the exercise the same care and concern that I've been giving the food preparation. To be honest, I think I've even been coasting a bit.

I think I need to watch that clip (again!) that I posted yesterday from "Facing the Giants," especially the part where the coach says, "Don't quit until you got nothing left."

That's the attitude I need to reach this very achievable, but very challenging goal!

Or, as the USMC says:
Ooo-rah!

Nancy

Pushing past the fear

WE HAVE MORE IN US THAN WE REALIZE!

This clip from "Facing the Giants" had me in tears today, especially after my previous post. It really emphasizes my point from yesterday, which is to push those negative thoughts out of your head and close your eyes to your doubts and fears! It also makes the point that you are most likely influencing people WAY more than you know, so don't give up! YOU are an inspiration to the rest of us!

Negative inner voices: ACCESS DENIED

"Hey, negativity. You paying attention? You're not welcome here!"

I've mentioned it before, but the total amount of weight I want to lose is 116 lbs. As of last Wednesday (weigh-in day), I've shaved 15.5 lbs off that total!

I'm quite happy and excited about this loss. However, it can be VERY disheartening if I ponder too long on the fact that I have 100.5 lbs. to go.

It's like, "Woo-hoo, I only have ... ummm ... like ... 100 ... um, yeah ...100 ... pounds ... to ... go. :o( "

"100 lbs. to go"? I think to myself. "That means I'm STILL really, really FAT!"

But you know how I'm handling that? I'm just not letting myself go there. When it starts to enter my mind about how BIG I still am, I just think of something else. Pure and simple. Sometimes you just have to tell your inner voice to SHUT UP!! I've been doing that a lot lately. It seems to be working.

Nancy

She shoots, she scores!

I LOVE SURPRISING MY KIDS!!

Shot hoops with my son again today. He was shocked with my energy and that I won repeatedly. Hee, hee.

My life has changed in so many ways because of 12WBT. We've had that basketball hoop for more than a year and this is the first time I've used it. I love my new energy and enthusiasm. And you know the best part? It enhances my relationship with my son in a whole new way!

Hmmm ... maybe this summer, I'll also go down the water slides with him at the water park! That ought to freak him out even more!